[Verse 1]
Inside my head there's a huge wall I keep running into
With every thought, I give myself bruises
I'm black and I'm blue

I want to stop being so hard on myself
But there's no off switch, and I'm not on enough to get some help

But I still try, believe me I try all the time
And I'm stopped dead in my tracks by my dead end mind

On this road that can't go anywhere because it's too short, this wall in my head pretends to be a fort

But what's it guarding that's of any value at all? And why can't I be as invincible as this wall?

[Chorus]
On the other side there's dirt where flowers should be
And sometimes there's my bed but it's made out of concrete
On the other side the only thing in my imaginary sky is a big lonely moon
It lost the stars when I lost my good mood
On the other side my childhood is projected 24/7 It's on an endless loop
And it looks a lot like heaven
I miss animal crackers in my soup
And on the other side seeing that is a form of torture
It's everything I used to have but don't anymore

[Verse 2]
I hear old music playing, and it's comforting too
And I hear a voice saying "it's coming from a past that only belongs you"

But I don't think I'm capable of remembering anything so right
The only things I remember turn sleeping into a fight

Have you noticed how beautiful pavement looks after it has rained?
I can't help but wish the tears on my face would do the same

Well it poured the other day and all I could was stare at streets reflecting car lights
And I cried because I felt sentimental, but when I looked in the mirror nothing had changed that night

And I sank into the cold floor under my feet
I was on top of the world but then I started to think

[Chorus]
On the other side there's dirt where flowers should be
And sometimes there's my bed but it's made out of concrete
On the other side the only thing in my imaginary sky is a big lonely moon
It lost the stars when I lost my good mood
On the other side my childhood is projected 24/7 It's on an endless loop
And it looks a lot like heaven
I miss animal crackers in my soup
And on the other side seeing that is a form of torture
It's everything I used to have but don't anymore

[Bridge]
I had to grow up too fast and I'd like to tell you everything I stopped letting myself feel

Pain isn't something to be ashamed of
Sadness makes you real

I had to grow up too fast and I'd like to tell you everything I stopped letting myself feel

Expecting isn't something to be ashamed of
Disappointment makes you real

I had to grow up too fast and I'd like to tell you everything I stopped letting myself feel

Insomnia isn't something to be ashamed of
Being tired makes you real

[Outro]
On the other side there's dirt where flowers should be
And sometimes there's my bed but it's made out of concrete
Maybe that's why I can't sleep
Maybe that's why I can't sleep