It’s like the words are crawling up your throat

every instinct in your body
is screaming



shouting at you

to kiss him


hold him



touch him







but you can’t

and before you know it




it feels like you’re falling



apart at the seams
All because of some stupid

irrelevant boy


a boy with a blinding smile

and eyes that make you weak in the knees



and before you know it
you can feel yourself falling for him

your brain is shouting
screaming at you
and yes









okay


you know you’re being an idiot

But he looks at you




he smiles at you


and your brain just









shuts off
And you wake up


in the middle of the night





and he’s in every corner

every last crevice of your brain
you can feel yourself unraveling





and you’ve lost the will

to care



you find yourself






scanning the crowd

always searching for him



even when you know he’s not there

And yes.


fine.





alright.
You get it.



you’re just another idiot



who fell for him





played the game






and lost

But you can’t be blamed for trying


you can’t be blamed for falling





that rests on his shoulders
you just wish





that you could hate him.

You just wish he cared