My favorite place

My mother

She was my knight in shining armor

But, 

I never knew her

Her other side

The dark place she was in

The heart and soul being tugged at 

By those illicit substances.

Why would you leave me?

Here? In the dark?

She never knew how to be a mother

But she was one

My home

My life

My future

She left without a trace

Feeling so blue.

Where are you?

Mom? How could you?

Trapped in the darkness

Of her own addiction 

She left

Me and my sister

Alone

Cold and starving

On the soft reddish-orange couch.

Are you coming back?

Please? Come back?

She did come back, 

Eventually, 

But only to sell my soul to the devil

The man in the mask

The white van with sweet, sugary candy

Just for her own benefit.

Why don't you care?

For me? My well being?

I wish she would get better

Maybe even be my “mother” again

But no

She wasn't their

Not mind

Not body

Not soul.

The home I never knew left me again.